Unsettling Dreams

sleep tackled me to the bed
and messed with my head

first dream
emotion regression back fifteen years
choking with suppressed rage
nearly at end of some kind of course of study
using a notebook with black pages
nagging sisters
and i throw it all in
days before completion
and move house without telling anybody
new address or number
and am attempting to live in same town
without running into anybody i know

very odd

not something i've ever done
though just before i moved out of home
it was something i thought about

second dream
i had a baby
for some reason my hospital bed
was just curtained off cubicle in a waiting lounge
some of the fathers family were waiting there for somebody else
watching television
i had broken up with the brother
they thought i had been cheating on him
and that the baby belonged to somebody else
the baby was small
maybe a little premmy
she had hair
i felt as loving to her as i do to a kitten
i was naming her 'grace'
and was considering 'faith' as a middle name
but was thinking that 'grace faith' didn't go so good together
rest of dream was like stuck record
thinking about the name
grace faith?
grace charity?
grace prudence?
and how mean it would be to call her 'chasity'

terribly jerry springer really
when one thinks about it
but at least the baby wasn't murdered in this one, eh?